Sunday, September 10, 2006

Moms and their Sons

Why is it that moms spoil their sons more than their daughters. I say this because my mom spoils my brothers to death. She has done so much for them. Her daughters didn't get, and don't get, all of the attention and things they get. Whatever they want and even what they don't want they get. And it isn't only my mom, from watching my friends moms and other peoples mom I notice that they spoil the boys. They are constantly saying, "My poor son, my poor little baby. Let me help you. What do you need? Let me get it for you." What is up with that. Hello your daughter needs more help.

Isn't a guy suppose to be a man and be able to take care of himself. Doesn't society paint the man as the strong one and provider. Even in this day in age they still make more money than women. For what? What do they do that is so special? I just don't see it.

It is acceptable for them to get stressed and get upset when they are stressed and things don't go their way. Yet when women do this then it is a sign of weakness and they are exagerating. They can't handle things because they get upset. But from what I have experienced they can handle more than any man.

A man has the right to runaway from his children and go with his buddies when they are annoying or bothering him but a woman has to deal with the children. If he is stressed it's ok for him to go out but what does a women get to do?

I have seen my mom and sisters deal with their kids even when they are an emotional wreck. They don't show their sadness and worries, they try to find a solution to the problem. If they need money then they are willing to get another job. They will do whatever it takes to provide for their children. They have to worry about working, getting home and cook, clean and take care of the house. While the man gets to get home and watch TV and sit around because he is tired from work and needs to relax. The women is always on the move while the man gets to rest.

I see my mom working and coming home to cook for my brothers. She babies them. Now that they are going to school she is worried about them and helping them out with their school supplies. Anything that they need they get. But it isn't and wasn't the same with her daughters. We had to take care of ourselves. I had to buy my own things for school and take care of everything that dealt with school. I was left on my own because she moved to Idaho. The only people I had were my sisters but they had their families to take care of and couldn't help me because they hadn't gone to college. I missed my home and family when I left to school but I had to suck it up and get accustomed to it and deal with it. My mom is worried about my brothers being alone in school. What about me? I needed someone but didn't have anyone.

My brothers are so lucky to have me and my sister help them out. They also have my mom buy what they need for them. They are men, aren't they suppose to be able to take care of themselves. They are men so they should start acting like it.

Even though I am complaining about this I wouldn't want my brothers to go through what I did. I am also glad they have someone to help them out because it sure wasn't easy for me.

So this brings me to my other point. Are women to blame for how men act. We allow them to whine and complain and just sit there and do nothing while we try to fix everything for them. Do we make it acceptable for them to break down while we are not allowed to? I wonder? It isn't an excuse for their behavior but it could be a reason.

Need Sleep

I have had the weirdest sleeping patterns. I have been going to sleep late and waking up early. I am very sleepy all day and you can tell because I have bags under my eyes. See I usually go to sleep early, around 10 or 11, during the week because I have to always be on alert with my students. Lately, I have been going to sleep around 1 or 2 in the morning. Then I need to be up by 6 in order to be at school by 7:30.

Before when I wouldn't get enough sleep I would take a nap after work and catch up a bit but I haven't been doing that lately. I have been on the go all the time. If it isn't because I'm doing something for school, then I am helping my brothers or my nieces. I am so tired and just want to go to sleep but I can't. I feel my tiredeness but I do not sleep.

Then when I finally go to sleep it isn't a sound sleep. I am always thinking of something and end up waking up. On Tuesday I went to sleep around 1 and ended up waking up again around 4:30 and couldn't go back to sleep. My brain is always on the move. I don't know why.

I figure I must be stressed but I have been stressed before and I have not been affected like I am now. As a result, I assume it must be something else. I don't know what it could be but I wish I did. All I want to do is sleep and rest. Not sleep and think. Maybe I should start taking some drugs to help me sleep. Well if things don't change soon I think I just might need to. I will wait it out because I also think that it might be because the new school year has started and my body is still accustomed to the summer hours. I just don't know. Though I have heard that it takes 13 days for your body to get accustomed to something new. It has been over 13 days since the new school year started.

I know my sleeping hours might not be bad for some people but it is unusual for me. We'll see how things go.