Ode to Fadedgirl

You know Charlie and I were talking this weekend and it made me realize how much I have not appreciated fadedgirl. She has been with me through the good, the bad, and many changes. I think that the most constant person in my life has been here. We have had our arguments and differences but we still always end up going back to each other. I can confide in her with many things and I know she will try to help me even if she can't. Of all of the people in our group she has been the most open and emotional. I wish I could be like her. It is a wonder we get along. I am not very emotional to the extent of not appologizing to her for things that have gone wrong. We stop talking and talk again and she doesn't ask any questions she just moves on. I know she wishes it wasn't that way because she likes to discuss things and straighten them out. She posted about it on one of her posts and it made me realize that she was right. I have a big problem expressing my feelings and she knows this and accepts it. Yet it is no excuse for the way that I have treated her. Expecially for me because I hate excuses. So I apologize to her for not straightening things out when we have stopped talking, for not apologizing to her, and for putting her behind anybody else. She has been a true friend, she definitely deserved a better friend. I wonder why she ever stuck with me.

You know she was told by someone that if one of us was a male then we would make a perfect couple because we are considerate about other people. I think she really does complement me. Although we are different in some things we have even more things in common.

I am glad and lucky to have her as my friend and confidant.